I am a Christian. I lost my way a few years ago, thinking that I could manage my life, my past traumas, my family, and my heart all on my own. Even after I was arrested and waiting to be sentenced, I knew that I could handle it all on my own. I was so very wrong.
I see now that I have needed my saviour all along, and even though I had rejected God and His ways, He was still there beside me, waiting for me to call on Him. I sit here today writing this, and I know that Jesus was rejoicing when I called upon Him. He probably said: “It is about time. I have been waiting for this moment.”
I am currently reading Lord, I Want to Be Whole by Stormie Omartian. I am going to the do the seven steps. First is to site and write down an inventory of my sins. (There will be so many.) Then, I will take this list and ask for the pastor at my church to lift it up to Jesus in prayer. After that, I will continue on with the steps.
My new journey with Jesus has just begun. I ended up in jail and confessed to the pastor in prison. What he said to me after my confession (while I was crying) impacted my life forever. He created in that moment my new life with Christ Jesus, my Redeemer, my Saviour, my God, my Father, and my everything. He said: “Cas, I forgive you, and so does God.”
I prayed. I went to chapel. I got to know a few sisters in Christ. My journey only got better and better. After completing several Bible courses, I met a lonely woman in jail named Lana. She encouraged me to do studies with Crossroads, as she was.
And here I am today, pouring my heart out and wanting to study more, learn more, and strive to know Jesus more.
I look forward to continuing my studies with Crossroads and having a mentor to connect with. Thank you for everything.
Cas’s name was changed to protect her privacy. Photo by Molly Belle on Unsplash.